will my life ever b the same?

well im 38 and i just found out i have hsv2 i went for a routine check up and asked for every test everything came back clear except for this one. i was shocked and just sooo lost i haven't been able to go back to work yet and Ive just let a couple of my closest friends know cause i trust them with my life
i may never know who gave this to me for i thought all my partners were clean or so they told me.
how is it u wanna trust someone yet u cant...
im so lost and confused and totally stressed out
ive spent so many hours reading on this virus and all that comes with it
a lot makes sense yet a lot doesn't
ive never had an outbreak and i can only pray i never get one.
i don't know what direction to go in with my life anymore
i have faith
i have my family
i have my true friends
but will i ever have love will i be accepted for who i am and what i have.