The Worst Day of My Life, (Oct 5, 2008)

by Angry
(USA)

I had a visit from a guy I had previously been engaged to. I still had strong feelings for him, which is why all this was able to happen. When he was about to leave, walking down the hall of my apartment building, I called him back for a hug... but ended up getting much more.

He came back in & we closed the door, began kissing & heavy petting. He undid my pants & pulled them & my underwear down. He turned me so that my back was to him (& I also couldn't see "him"). We commensed having intercourse. Afterward, we were in my bathroom & I was sitting on the toilet seat while he was at the sink/vanity. I looked over at his member & noticed something unusual... as well as alarming. I said, "Come here. Turn around... What's that?" He said, "What's what?" I pointed at the little bumps on him & said, "THAT." He paused for a moment & said, "Oh, the doctor said it's just a rash from masturbating." I couldn't believe it. "So you saw a doctor about it? & he told you it was a RASH from MASTURBATING??" He said, "Yeah." I looked at it again & said, "I don't want to scare you, but that looks like Herpes." He suddendly got mad & defensive raising his voice, "No it's NOT! I already got tested for that & it was negative! It's just a rash from mastubating all the time." Fast forward 3 days... I developed some irritation 'down there' & got worried. I looked with a mirror & noticed redness. I was also itching... like a feather was brushing me down there. Within 12 hours, I had a small bump. Then another. Then a cluster & it became very painful. I went to the E.R. & had a Dr. look. After looking he said, "I hate to say this, but I've seen this many, many times & I can tell you without any tests that you have genital herpes." The words echoed in my head. "Are you sure? Can you just test me anyway? What if it's something else?" He shook his head. "I'll test you, but I'm telling you now, it's herpes." The tests came back 4 days later; positive on the swab, negative on the blood. He had prescribed Valtrex to me which I'd immediately started taking. I immediately told my ex, who reacted angrily saying I'd given it to HIM! The sores eventually healed (after 3 wks). I went to a testing clinic to have another blood test about a month later. A few days later, I called & got the dreaded results. Positive, HSV-2. My ex never did get retested... not to my knowledge. He remained defiant & in denial about the whole thing. So he's out there still having sex (unprotected most likely) with other women who have no idea. Nearly 2 yrs later, I am still suffering with this awful disease. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy! I feel like a leper & I don't think I'll ever marry or have children now. It makes me incredibly sad. If only I'd left him alone after we broke up!


~Angry in USA~