Still In Shock!!....

I went to the doc for my routine check-up.. Took every test from A-Z.. Everything came back NEGATIVE except for Herpes.. When i got the call from the doctor office,all i heard was the word "HERPES"!... I just said yes and remembering hanging up the phone and just layed there repeating the word HERPES!,HERPES!,HERPES!!,was i just told i had HERPES!!!!???... You got to be kidding me!!!!..that can't be right!!!. So i call the doctor back and ask,can you PLEASE go over my results again??. And again,out of all she said,all i heard was the word HERPES!!!... I still can't believe it!!!!.. So i jumped on the phone and called my longtime partner of 12yrs!!!!..who lives out of state and said,..You need to go take all of the STD test and call me with all your results!!!!. Of course he was like What?!!!. What you talking about?!!. Well i told him and after doing so,he said he would take all of them and then call me... Well til this day,he hasn't call me with his results and it's been 3weeks now!!.. He's making excuses about why he hasn't takened the test yet.. Like,i'm very busy with work and can't just jump up and go... Or my mother is in the Hosp and i'm going to see her today.. Ok,i understand that with his Mother,but he can still get on the phone and make an appointment to go get the test done!!!.. I'm NOT happy with him right now!!.. He's taking tooo long to take the test!!!!. He's the only man i've been with in those 12yrs and he knows it.. Why didn't we marry??...well we both enjoyed our relationship the way it was... So there's my story. Now the question is,where do i go from here??.. How is my life going to change??,..and will it change that much??.. Do i have to wash my hands a thousand times,No more Kissing my lil Nephews or Nieces??..or Sex???. I don't know WHAT TO DO!...:=(