So I May Have Herpes . FML ! Im SCARED

by Jenay
(NC)

So here goes the story , during the last couple of days of summer i was smoking & drinking & what not & on one particular day i ended up having sex with this guy , i knew him from back in the day from my sister we used a condom. so a day or so after "the sex" i had a nasty discharge , i was scared out my mind, i started doing research & it said that the discharge i was having might be a sign of chlamydia. so after that i called my mom and asked her to make me a doctors appointment , she did . a week later i was walking down the street with my friend we had just came from our ex-friends house & she told me that our ex-friend had asked her did she have herpes because he heard that the guy that i had sex with ( which she had sex/oral sex with him the day before & i didn't find out til days later. the guy that asked my friend has no idea that me & that guy had sex ) so when she told me that my heart INSTANTLY dropped . my doctors appointment comes around & i conger up the courage to tell my doctor that i was experiencing a vaginal discharge , he checked it out & a week or two later i found out that i had chlamydia . i was devastated , but deep down inside i knew that it could possibly be something else . i was depressed for a months & a half regretting what i had did & how the whole situation went down . i didn't know if i had got it from this guy that i had sex with 2 months ago but it couldn't be because i had no symptoms til after i had sex with the guy who might of gave it to me . so a month later i found out from his play-sister that he has chlamydia & herpes . EVERYONE in the whole neighborhood knew he had herpes except for me and my friend . so my medicine had come for my chlamydia & it cleared up the discharge & then a few weeks later i had another discharge , but this time it was thick & white but odorless , my sis took me to the doctor & turns of i had BV (bacterial Vaginitis) i took medicine for that & from my previous research a yeast infection & BV can happen due to herpes . i have no symptoms of herpes but the inside of my vagina looks weird & i have 3 bumps on the outside of my vagina. this has been going on for about 3 months . the bumps have started to get bigger & the inside of my vagina still looks weird . the bumps don't look like herpes bumps . I'm only 15 & my mind is going crazy , all these thoughts are running through my head. i cant get married or have kids ,i wont be accepted , it was bad enough i had chlamydia & my family had to find out . I've schedules appt after appt but I had to keep rescheduling & I'm SCARED & i feel lonely i don't know what to do . these thoughts have consumed my mind for months :(