scared out of my mind

by in tears
(nevada)

I am getting married in two weeks and my partner and i both decided to get tested for every thing, me being a last minute person, i decided to wait till the last minute. today i got a call from my doctor who said to me on the phone as i parked my car, that every test came back negative but one, and here i am today as the doctor calls me to tell me that i tested positive for herpes and they do not know how long i have had it, wow i am scared out of my mind in denial, my fiancé doesn't have it because we chose to be abstinent, and i have been also. i cant believe this is happening to me, i feel so bad and cant get over it, but at the same time he is understanding and just so happens that he has taken the antibody shots a long time ago, because of his job. the doctor doesn't even know when and how i got it, because i never got tested for it, nor had an out break of anything, not even a cold sore.