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Its tough, but so's life...
I only went to the one to one because i thought i had a yeast infection or something, but in my heart of hearts i think i always knew it wasn't that. I was in too much pain, and when i seen these small blisters i could have broken down there and then. I was seeing someone then being seeing him for about 2-3months, and yes we'd stupidly had unprotected sex only 4 days before my outbreak. Id never had anything like this before no pain nothing, and i hadn't been sleeping around or anything but i had one, one night stand before i meant my now ex-boyfriend. Part of me isn't sure who its from. My sister was convinced from day one that it was off him, i mean now i know how the virus works i think its probable. With getting the symptoms 3-4 days after having sex with him it seems likely. But more to the point having a second episode recently after being ill and run down im almost certain it was from him. Its perhaps not fair to blame him for me contracting this virus but id been very ill before having sex with him and id never had an outbreak. I know I'll never know where it really did come from but i learnt the hard way. there are several other factors that i now look back on with hindsight that also make it probable that it was from him. Especially as i have since found out that he was sleeping with his ex-gf behind my back who i know carries an std. The point of this isn't to make you feel sorry for yourself or to stay away from relationships! The virus is nasty yes, its painful and horrible, but may people can have one outbreak and never have anymore. Furthermore you cant be hating on the person that gave it to because often people have no symptoms and are unaware they carry a virus. How can you blame someone for something they know nothing about. I just feel that all these stories are miserable when really yes the virus could affect you but its unlikely! If you have a healthy immune system and look after yourself your life shall go on as normal. 7 out of 10 people carry HSV 1 virus and many without knowledge. The thing is this isnt the end of the world. Yes, its a virus that you shall carry with you for the rest of your life. But eventually the virus will lie dormant very similar to the chicken pox virus' etc. They will remain in your system but you will not be infecting people and it will not affect your life style. When this will happen no one can say but, its not the end of your life. Your not unable to have children, yes if you have an outbreak it can cause a possibility of miscarriage in the first 3 months, and if you have an outbreak near birth you will be given a c-section to prevent the children from getting the virus. But none of this will stop you doing anything in life. Yes, its not nice but don't beat yourself up about it! You need to be strong, because crying over it, not eating and all those factors wont help you! Its tough but that's life, not everyone is dealt an easy card and there's nastier things out there than herpes. |
