Im so scared

by samantha
(chicago)

I just recently found out that i have herpes part one. when i received the news. i started crying. I was thinking that this is the end for me. I was really scared cause i know this is something that i have for the rest of my life. I remember my ex boyfriend giving me oral when he had a cold sore. I didn't say anything because i didn't think nothing of it. I also remember him having a pimple on his penis. I'm not with him anymore. There is this new guy that i met. I'm scared to tell him, but i know its something i have to do. I have to tell him the truth. i just don't know how to approach it. what if he hurts me? Another thing I'm worried about is not finding the right person who will love me for me. How will i ever start the family that Ive always wanted :( and if i tell my ex. He is going to call me a whore because i cheated on him in the past.