i got it from my partner

by lisa
(miami florida)

i was told he had it ...but he told me i could not get it if we were careful...well you guess it....i got it....it has been 10yrs since i have had it...i get it sometime with my period or if i get stress i swell up like a balloon ...i use to get bumps but no more...i just swell up....i am no longer with this partner and i would like to be with someone else but i have not had the courage to tell him...i would like to marry him...i have not had sexual intercourse with him...i have refuse...i am scared of the rejection if i tell him....i thought about using a condom...but i feel guilty and i just can not make love to him....he thinks i do not love him but i do...i feel dirty...what do i do besides get the nerve and tell him....he is from a foreign country that i plan on moving too....i just do not want to play Russian roulette with his penis...or say i did not know if he had a break out.....sign help me