I felt completely worthless!!

by Cali
(CA)

Im am currently 19 about to be twenty. I got genital herpes when I was 16. It was a complete shock. I had been seeing the guy for 2 years and we had split up for a little bit. I couldn't even begin to tell you the things running through my head. After I had found out my life went completely downhill. My family called mobile crises on me about two weeks after my first outbreak. I ended up going to therapy for 6 weeks and getting kicked out of school. My boyfriend felt horrible. He hated every minute of my pain. I would lay in the tub screaming. It was the most painful thing I have ever been through to this day. Emotionally and physically. For years I had thought my boyfriend had received it and gave it to me.But about a month ago he got a blood test done and found out he didn't have it. It was devastating to me. I felt completely alone. The only way I could have gotten it would have to be from a cold sore. We are still friends and I have to say I am thankful for what I have and thankful he stood beside me through every minute of it. We have been together for five years and married for one which has recently come to an end. I met a new guy after my divorce. After seeing each other for a little while I told him what I had. I was terrified he was going to leave me. All he did was smiled. He told me he didn't care that it couldn't change the way he felt about me and we have been together every since. No one that I have been with has contracted the virus. Which is great. I am thankful for my wonderful fiance, my ex and my loving family because without them I wouldn't have made it through. My only advice is to keep your head up and be honest. You would want them to tell you if they had anything. Oh and make sure to use protection.