Husband Gave Me Herpes

by Betrayed
(Alaska)

I am in counseling, taking an antidepressant, and a handful of immune boosting supplements.
I still feel absolutely hopeless. I broke out and asked my husband if he had been with anyone. He lied of course. My MD confirmed Herpes and then the nightmare unfolded. He had unprotected one night stand with a stranger he met on the Internet. He had sex over a period of 5 years on and off with another woman. He even gave and received oral sex with a MAN! He has engaged in sexual email exchanges with various other people.
To fully realize the shock of this, you have to know that my husband has the " Andy Griffith" type persona. A man that is of the highest moral fiber, honest and of integrity!
He has treated me very well for the ten years of our marriage, but this I fear has not only destroyed our relationship, but I fear it has destroyed me!
I have faced struggles in the past, including a very difficult childhood, but this has devastated me.
The herpes pain, coupled with the emotional devastation is more than I can handle.
I have thought about suicide. He is extremely remorseful and is in counseling and attending SAA meetings. Shock, devastation ... No words describe my pain.
He has had no symptoms. I have had an almost constant painful outbreak since early March!
God help me...