Found out two days ago..

by New2herpes
(Cali)

So I got the phone call that no one wants, and my heart started beating fast. I texted the man I've been sleeping with without protection for the last couple months. After I went in to see what's wrong I told him I had herpes 2. I sat In My parked car crying for hours.. I never said why me... Deep down I knew why me. I said how am I gonna tell the other three guys I've slept with.. I still haven't got my nerves up. Its so hard. The guy I been sleeping with told me to come over and we hung out. He even held me in his arms all night.. He took me for a bike ride to the park where we played at the park... what I great guy ( for a booty call that just got the news from me). I feel so different even tho I'm still me and I'm generally healthy.. I feel like everyone who looks at me feel that Im gross. How long do you start to feeling like yourself? I just wanna cry every time I think about it.. I wanna crawl inside my bed and be alone I'm 31 with two kids so I can't. Do people feel like I do?