24 hrs til JUDGMNT day

by Too Embarrassed
(USA)

Yesterday I took myself to the ER. I was having symptoms of a bad yeast infection and UTI. I was trying to rely on home remedies but it got worse. Thats when I noticed the sore...

I honestly went in with the intentions of proving whether or not my boyfriend of five years had cheated on me in his recent deployment. (Hes the only person Ive ever been with).

When the doctor delivered the news that it could be herpes she had to hold me because I couldn't stop crying. My boyfriend had a fever blister on his lip and I asked about it before oral sex but he insisted he got it from biting his lip while wrestling.

I wont know whether or not I have herpes until tomorrow when my cultures come back but honestly... I'm pretty sure that's what it is. I cant stop crying and I already suffer from depression problems. I never thought anything like this would happen to me.

I don't want to blame him but I cant help but think if he hadn't been unfaithful a few years back (with a girl who now admits to having herpes) I wouldn't be here.

I'm so embarrassed I don't know who to talk to or who to tell. i feel so alone.