- ahy i wana die

by ashley
(nj usa)

- well im 14 years old & i had sex with this guy who i think i fell in love with . & but he played me & cheated on me , & i had unprotected sex with him -____- > twice . & the first time i didn't have nothing on my vagina . & the second time i had sex w.him like 4 days later i had a pimple on my vagina . i popped it . & then on a Sunday i went to a lake & stood there the whole day inside the water & when i come out my vagina itches * . & i took a shower & when i touched my but i had bumps . then the next day it itches & it burnt when i pee'ed . til one Wednesday morning i couldn't take the pain nomore frm my vagina . & i told my parents i had pain & they took me straight to the hospital they didn't do nothing much & then the other day i had more pain & they took me to the doctors & she said i had herpes i jus broke dwn crying ! & then she qave me pills & then the next day i couldn't tke the pain nomore & wwent to another hospital & they said i either have herpes or that i had a infection frm the lake or frm the clothing i wear or that i had a pimple & then since i qot in the lake it qot worse , idk which one is it - now that the doctors have assumed i have herpes i just feel like killing myself idk wht to do ! & i dont think i have herpes cause frm pictures that ive seen my vagina didn't look like non of them , my vagina looked swollen only . & now 5 days later my vagina is fine & i can pee normally . idk what to think anymore : any thoughts ?